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Why didn’t I learn to treat everything like it was the last time. My greatest regret was how much I believed in the future.

- Jonathan Safran Foer, Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close (via quotethat)

There is no shame in being hungry for another person. There is no shame in wanting very much to share your life with somebody.

- Augusten Burroughs (via quotethat)

I no longer believed in the idea of soul mates, or love at first sight. But I was beginning to believe that a very few times in your life, if you were lucky, you might meet someone who was exactly right for you. Not because he was perfect, or because you were, but because your combined flaws were arranged in a way that allowed two separate beings to hinge together.

- Lisa Kleypas, Blue-Eyed Devil (via quotethat)

I am me.

I am me.

I have small squinty eyes
I have a pale freckled face
I have light colored eyebrows
I have bent middle toes
I have a hitch hikers thumb
I have brownish blonde hair
It’s cream colored and hard to describe.
I have dark blueish grey eyes
They aren’t very striking
I have boney fingers
I have bigger boobs now
I’m not used to them
I have a very thin waist
I have bigger thighs now
I have veiny legs
They are also pale
I tried to tan, but it doesn’t work
I’m covered in freckles
I have freckled ears
And fingers
And toes
And legs
And arms
They are everywhere
I think they make me look dirty
But I think I like them
My teeth are almost straight
They are also almost white
My cuticles are always overgrown
My nails are brittle
My age doesn’t show
Except under my eyes
My pants don’t fit anymore
My voice is high pitched
I try to deepen it
My hair grows slowly
It’s long but not long enough
My hips are boney
I have rough soles on my feet
I like to walk barefoot
I like to sit outside
I have bad breath sometimes
I drink soda almost everyday
And coffee
And sometimes I smoke
I don’t know why
I like to wear dresses sometimes
And most times I don’t
But I still do
But not right now
I can act girly
But I don’t like myself when I do
I can act distant
But I don’t like myself when I do
I have tattoos
I love almost all of them
I like to be naked
But I feel too vulnerable
I like to wear clothes
But I feel too restricted
I have dark under eye circles
And I always look sick
I am not very confident
But I usually do my own thing
I am rather skinny
I like bright colors
I like being alone
And I also hate it
I have depression
And I also hate that
I get overly excited sometimes
And then I always feel out of place
I am too loud most of the time
And too quiet the rest of the time
I keep liking new foods
And keep hating others
I don’t like my job
I don’t like my family that much either
I love to read
But I hardly find a good book
I love to work with my hands
I also like to do nothing
But then I feel anxious
I have anxiety
And I hate that
I have light eye lashes
But I wish they were lighter
I have light hair
But I wish it were lighter
I use Chapstick everyday
I like cold foods
Or lukewarm foods
I like pink
And red
And blue
And basically all the bright colors
I like soft music
I like deep and sad lyrics
But I also like hard music
And deep and angry lyrics
I cry more often
I cry a lot
I have a baby face
I do not have an eating disorder
I like cute things
They make me smile
And I want to smile more
I am over all not happy
I can be happy sometimes
I am broken
But I don’t want to be fixed
I am gay
I am in love with a woman
I am me
I want to be accepted
I am me
And I want to accept myself.

© Carrie Kraszewski 2014

Do not fall in love with people like me. I will take you to museums, and parks, and monuments, and kiss you in every beautiful place, so that you can never go back to them without tasting me like blood in your mouth. I will destroy you in the most beautiful way possible. And when I leave you will finally understand, why storms are named after people.

- Caitlyn Siehl, (x)

I think the scariest thing about falling in love is that there’s always an opportunity to fall out of it. There is no signed contract, no promises that can’t be broken, no guarantees that that person will stick around and that scares me to death. One day, they can just wake up and be over your little weird habits, and the way you say the letter “I.” They’ll realize you’re selfish, they’ll realize they deserve so much more. And that’s the scariest thought I’ve ever had.

- Brenna, (x)

You are the books you read, the films you watch, the music you listen to, the people you meet, the dreams you have, the conversations you engage in. You are what you take from these. You are the sound of the ocean, the breath of fresh air, the brightest light and the darkest corner. You are a collective of every experience you have had in your life. You are every single second of every single day. So drown yourself in a sea of knowledge and existence. Let the words run through your veins and let the colors fill your mind until there is nothing left to do but explode. There are no wrong answers. Inspiration is everything. Sit back, relax, and take it all in. Now, go out and create something.

- Jac Vanek (via quotethat)

It doesn’t interest me what you do for a living. I want to know what you ache for, and if you dare to dream of meeting your heart’s longing.
It doesn’t interest me how old you are. I want to know if you will risk looking like a fool for love, for your dream, for the adventure of being alive. It doesn’t interest me what planets are squaring your moon. I want to know if you have touched the center of your own sorrow, if you have been opened by life’s betrayals or have become shriveled and closed from fear of further pain! I want to know if you can sit with pain, mine or your own, without moving to hide it or fade it, or fix it. I want to know if you can be with joy, mine or your own, if you can dance with wildness and let the ecstasy fill you to the tips of your fingers and toes without cautioning us to be careful, to be realistic, to remember the limitations of being human. It doesn’t interest me if the story you are telling me is true. I want to know if you can disappoint another to be true to yourself; if you can bear the accusation of betrayal and not betray your own soul; if you can be faithless and therefore trustworthy. I want to know if you can see beauty even when it’s not pretty, every day, and if you can source your own life from its presence. I want to know if you can live with failure, yours and mine, and still stand on the edge of the lake and shout to the silver of the full moon, “Yes!” It doesn’t interest me to know where you live or how much money you have. I want to know if you can get up, after the night of grief and despair, weary and bruised to the bone, and do what needs to be done to feed the children. It doesn’t interest me who you know or how you came to be here. I want to know if you will stand in the center of the fire with me and not shrink back. It doesn’t interest me where or what or with whom you have studied. I want to know what sustains you, from the inside, when all else falls away. I want to know if you can be alone with yourself and if you truly like the company you keep in the empty moments.

- Oriah Mountain Dreamer (via quotethat)

Two people who were once very close can without blame or grand betrayal become strangers. Perhaps this is the saddest thing in the world.

- Warsan Shire (via quotethat)

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