Vivid afterthoughts

The only sure thing

The love never stops
It’s always overflowing
Even as I’m unsure of myself
The smell of rain soaked grass
Breezing through my open window
Feeling at the end of my ropes
Twisting around my empty stomach
Is doubt in life and hope dwindling
And damp with tears
Then your words, your voice
Fill me to the brim
If I never could know
Where I was going
Except to know it was with you
I’d go anywhere,
Always overflowing
My feelings for you
Are the surest I’ve ever been
In this fleeting life
Abundant and infinite
Like the carpet of stars
That lay across the sky
My love is limitless
Only for you.
© Carrie Kraszewski 2013

Words can’t describe

Warm summer nights
Take me by the hand
I’d follow you anywhere
Our feet dragging in the sand

The stars smile in your eyes
Cool breeze weaving through your hair
I’m Admiring your soft voice
My life I give you to share

Teach me your painted teardrops
That beautiful pain you bare
Walk with me golden beauty
Take me with you everywhere

Whisper to me evening sunsets
The feeling of stopped time
Insects humming inside of me
Touch your honey laced lips to mine

Fumbling words roll down our breath
Pink cheeks smiling together
Sliding gemstones onto your finger
I’ll promise myself to you forever

©Carrie Kraszewski 2013

String

No matter how low or hollow I am,

I have an invisible leash around my neck,

It is very strong and painful like fishing wire,

And it keeps me teetering on the edge of a cliff,

When I pull back I feel as if it isn’t there,

It keeps me from falling over the edge,

All I can do is balance my feet on the very edge and choke,

Or pretend it is not there,

Your grip was firm on that lease,

The only way I’d fall is if you let go,

I believed the string would never snap,

I trusted you would never let go,

Strange to think I wanted you to cut that string then,

Or the string to snap on its own,

Then I would fall off the edge,

 And the tight pain around my neck,

Would start to fade just before I hit,

So I’d feel that sense of relief,

Right before I was put out of my misery,

I thought I’d die without it,

Maybe that’s why we both held on so long,

Your conscious made you take a firm grip,

My fear of rebirth made me pretend,

You wrapped that string twice around your hand,

I’d always played at the edge of the cliff,

But I’d never had someone to stop me from falling before,

Or anything to trust with my life,

So when the string snapped it was painful to watch,

As you tried to reach and grab for me,

So I decided to feel better,

Because even though I told you not to,

You still read these words of mine,

After I told you not to,

You still read them without permission,

So I jumped

© Carrie Kraszewski 2013